October 3rd, 2004

Self-Portrait 3

"Hey baby, you wanna get down on this?"

I just spent the past hour very earnestly flipping back and forth between an episode of Gilmore Girls and St. Louis thoroughly bitchslapping the '49ers, which I believe cements my status as a beautiful and unique snowflake.

This weekend has been fairly uneventful. Not nearly as eventful as I'd anticipated it being, at any rate. The nap I took yesterday afternoon completely threw off my rhythms, and I spent an hour last night watching the ghetto bird circle and randomly spotlight the strip because I couldn't get to sleep until past 2. I still woke up at 7 this morning and didn't start feeling sleepy again until about 5:30 or so. I'm fighting to stay awake until 10:30 so I can get back on my regular schedule. I got a lot of laundry done today, and I went to see Spider-Man 2 again with Shelli and Amy. I was intending to clean off my desk this weekend, and put a few more patches on my jacket, including a big one on the back. I need to get that done this week, probably Thursday night, since I don't have to go to work Friday.

I had a very long conversation with Jayme yesterday and a fairly long conversation with Shu today, which have combined to make me think long and hard about some vitally important aspects of my life. Namely that all I need to do is reach out there and take it, and I can have one again. But first I have to really and truly accept the fact that I just haven't let myself live and be happy in a very, very long time. And then once I accept it, I need to move past it.

I think I can do that.
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